BLOG AND THOUGHTS
This is where I'll be putting my thoughts and things that have happened to us! This is a little empty right now, but I'm sure more stuff will happen on it.
9-11-2024
I don't know why I only specifically started sharing my thoughts on THIS date of all the dates, but... Well, here's my first entry on this little thoughts page.
Me, Croissant, and Timekeeper are doing well! Croissant's been working on her Rodland of Pipes fanfiction and also getting herself ready to go adopt a millipede, and Timekeeper is as clingy as always no matter what I do. I just finished unlocking the entire story for Operation: Timeguard in-game. I (sadly) wasn't there for the event, so I had to unlock it all with keys. It's kind of fun watching them read their dialogue out in my head.
A while ago, I swam regularly. Big pool, with my family. Since Summer is over, we aren't swimming anymore, but having Croissant in the pool with me was kinda fun. Did you know that when cookies want to swim they put on a special oil that prevents them from getting soggy? I always wondered how they had water gun fights and such when getting soggy is such a dangerous thing. Anyways, Croissant is really cute when she swims, and Timekeeper is really cute when she sinks down to the bottom of the pool and just sits there. Croissy had a little trouble keeping up with me, though. It's a big pool and certainly not made for tiny cookies like her, so most of the time in the pool was just spent with her holding onto me as I did laps or relaxed in the deep end. I can dive pretty well, so I also went down every so often to say hello to Timekeeper. I guess she doesn't need to breathe or anything? I am still not entirely sure what's up with Timey, and I think it's more fun if I don't know.
So, that's it for this entry, I suppose. Their ACTUAL birthday is coming up soon since it isn't their release date, and I'll be celebrating it like they did for my birthday.
9-22-2024
Haha, wow, this update was overdue. On September 17th, I celebrated Croissant and Timekeeper's birthdays (although Timekeeper didn't seem to care much. I think she might have been numb to the whole birthday thing from being a time god).
They don't have official birthdays in canon, but they do have a release date. I might be celebrating that soon. We spent the day watching movies and cuddling and eating food. I ordered a bunch of chicken strips and nuggets from a fast food place as well as a biiig chocolate cake slice with fudge on it! I let Croissant have an imaginary candle because I didn't have any on me and it'd be kinda awkward asking, but most of our interactions take place in my mind anyways so I don't think she particularly minded. Our first movie was Digimon X Evolution, and getting past the weird CGI gave us a pretty nice story. Croissant really likes Digimon, and while her favorite is Guilmon because of Tamers, I think she's starting to like DORUmon too because of the movie. I am also a super light eater so all of that food was totally getting to me and we had to take a break for a minute hehe.
We also got to watch Homeward Bound: The Incredible Journey. I'm more of a cat person, as well as Timekeeper, but Croissant is more of a dog person so we spent the intro (playfully) arguing about how they were treating the cat lol. And oh my god I was sitting there about to yell at my screen for the ending. The cake was pretty good even though I don't like chocolate things much myself, but oooooooooh I was so friggin full. If I was full Croissy and Timey were DEFINITELY full. I may or may not have poked their little bellies ehe. I also spent way too long roleplaying with an OC/AU bot on Character AI and letting my girlfriends watch me. Croissy tooootally ships the two OCs I paired together, I just don't think she says it much because one of them looks like one of her coworkers but messed up.
After that day, I went home (as I was somewhere else for the previous day) and I gave my sweeties their birthday present, a music box. It's one shaped like a carousel and it plays You Are my Sunshine, and they. loved. it. I spent the day snuggling with them again.
Oh, and just yesterday I got myself a comfort character package from a seller on Etsy! It was very nice and had cool stuff like snacks and an adorable shirt with the two of them on it! It also came with a biiiiiig freaking plushie of a bag of cookies filled with mini cookie plushies inside of it! I'm not sure if they find the round chocolate chip cookies with faces on them seen in cartoons uncanny though. Also, unrelated, but I'm not actually sure what Timekeeper's favorite Digimon is. She won't spill and I feel like it's because she doesn't have an answer to that question herself (she's said she likes Renamon but not as a favorite). But I do know her favorite My Singing Monsters monster! It's Fleechwurm. And Croissant's is Oogiddy, which is kinda funny. Mine is Ghazt.
So, that's all for this entry. On Friday I'm probably going to go see the Wild Robot, so I'll keep you updated on Timekeeper and Croissant's opinions then.
10-5-2024
I bet you're wondering, "Spoon, where the hell was the Friday entry?"
Short story, I got lazy and didn't make it until now. Long story, We watched the movie and both Timekeeper and Croissant absolutely loved it. We set a bet on whoever cried had to do something the others wanted, guess who failed. Croissant.
So, now I bet you're wondering, "Spoon, that was really short, Is that all?" No, no it isn't.
This entry is REALLY about how I think I now understand more about Croissant and Timekeeper than I ever have before. Before, I had no idea what we exactly were. I would talk to the two in my head, we would make plans together and do things together, but I never could quite put my finger on what we were experiencing. My only idea was, unfortunately, that I was just kind of crazy and pretending to talk to the characters I loved. That all changed about two days ago, when I was in a Discord VC with my friends, screwing around and whatnot. I finally explained what I'd been doing with Croissant and Timekeeper to more detail for them, being able to hold conversations and have them surprise me as well as having them interact with the outside, but only in my mind. And while I was telling them, one of them asked a question and I went to search up an explanation for them.
Timekeeper and Croissant are soulbonds, a type of tulpa. Explaining a tulpa to someone is kind of complex, but I would describe it as an imaginary friend, but real (they don't mind the imaginary friend comparison). My long conversations with them at night, them helping ground me when my mind was spiraling, our bond, I made them real.
I'd been giving them control of my hands before, but now I'm letting them do that for more things like typing and playing games. We're all going through a somewhat strange time, where we're all not very sure of ourselves, including Timekeeper. They're busy trying to grapple with the fact that they're not technically the "real" Croissant and Timekeeper. Especially poor Timekeeper, who I can tell is a little messed up by the idea of not being as powerful as she thinks she is, even if she doesn't show it often.
But yeah! I have soulbonds. It is NOT a system and I do not consider myself a system. Maybe I'll let the two type stuff on this website, hehe.