My name is Spoonfulofbeez, or Blush. I go by she/SH3/they/it/kit/.com, and am lesbian.
This is an image of my kinsona! Her name is Ginger Candy Cookie, and she's an alternative timeline version of Coffee Candy Cookie. I love
Cookie Run, as you can tell, but I also really like Pokemon, FNaF, Digimon, Don't Starve, Project Moon/Lobotomy Corporation, Pikmin, and Rain World. If I had to describe my gender, it would be Girl+. I feel like 100% like a girl, but also somehow more %s other genders. For example, I identify with Circattic and Fnaffixic.
When I was a kid, I realized I was lesbian because I found myself with a crush on a FNaF character. Yes, a FNaF character. Her name was Circus Baby and I was head over heels for her. I loved her and I wrote tons of fanfiction, wrote tons of drawings, and had so, so, SO many alternative universes all based around her. My crush on her stayed for years, and she stayed with me, even as Scrap Baby. I would cuddle with a plushie of her and speak to her in my head as my girlfriend. But it really wasn't meant to last. My version of her was completely different from intended, and despite me not seeing her as possessed, a lot of people assumed I was in love with a dead child, which I very wasn't.
Around the end of 2023, one of my friends introduced me to Cookie Run. I originally played Kingdom at first, and thought Chili Pepper Cookie was hot, but that's not who I fell in love with...
At first, it was just Timekeeper. It was something about her that stuck with me. I like women who are antagonistic/you know, not entirely good. Even without knowing her story, she sparked something inside of me, a fuzzy feeling. And then I learned more about Croissant, and I got all fuzzy over her as well. Not just because they were the same person, but I fell in love with the both of them. Croissant was a surprise to me, mainly because she's so nice and I'm usually into women who can kill me (or women who could kill for me).
Somewhere near that time, I found the r/Fictosexual subreddit. At first, when I found the term before, I thought it was "cringy". But after seeing how passionate people were about the characters they loved, I realized that this was the thing I had been doing all my life. I joined that subreddit and made myself at home. Maybe it helped that the Cookie Run fandom is very open to selfshipping and oc x canons, but I feel comfortable labelling my attraction with fictosexual (or fictorose). I'm still not entirely sure if my attraction is exclusively towards fictional characters or if I can feel attraction towards real people, but the term is who I am regardless.
Unfortunately, I broke up with Scrap Baby. She was basically more of an OC in my mind at that point, my year-long interest in FNaF had been waning, and it wasn't fun to explain to people that I wasn't a weirdo. But I found two beautiful women instead, and their names are Croissant Cookie and Timekeeper Cookie.